愛很難

圓圓在說一心一意的愛, 很難求，自己可以一心一意，但不可能祈求對方也是…

阿比談孤掌難鳴, 現代愛情主張三心兩意，見異思遷比比皆是,乏了堅持和理想，即使一方獨力專心一意,還是徒然的，感情始終是雙向的…

散文集寫愛在迷失的時候, 因為你的迷失, 令我不懂得再愛。不是我不願意，而是你把你自己埋藏了。我的愛，還可以給誰呢？愛，是不可發生在單程路上的。愛，是需要兩個人去慢慢的幫助它成長的。愛，是不可把它置之不理的。愛，是不可當你有空的時候才看看它的。愛，是很小氣的，你不理睬它，它便不再理睬你，是永遠的。 (口吻很像大雄的)

記得很久前大雄也寫過這回事, 愛也難! 戀愛不是一個人的事。戀愛的責任不應只由一個人來承擔。在愛與被愛之間，選擇被愛當然是最幸福，但被愛不等同袖手旁觀，不代表甚麼都可以不做。愛即使廣闊如澔瀚大海，始終會有極限。耗盡一個人，愛也難。

今天明報王偉明也來湊熱鬧,從男也從女的角度談兩性在一段關係中所祈盼的, 原來女人要「錫」, 男人要的是「尊重」! 試問有幾多人能做到?

大條道理很多?人卻總是知易行難! 我只知道 -- 愛很難!

Sweet Fruit

Returned to HKU for some minor stuffs but was surprised a crowd of people in campus dressing well with photo taken. Yup, right, now is the season of graduation.

Life has lots of thing to share with including ups and downs but nothing can be better to have great moment/fruit shared with our close friend and family. And sure earn their blessing. To me graduation ceremony becomes a memory, I shard my first with classmates and friends and second with my family only. And this year, I have few friends would have theirs. Once we have been closely studied together, hard working for our own research, escaped after lunch to K singing and playing as well. It’s glad to see their turn here to recognize their honor of effort paid. My friends, congratulation!

Intensive Course

Ruth posted a topic of 21 hours intensive course in her degree recently and commented it as the difference between a college and a shop in terms of knowledge acquiring. Yup, I do agree with her here and somehow that’s the usual arrangement of part-time degree or professional course in academic/non-academic institutes.

Under norm practice a course in university would last around 12 weeks. It offers students plenty of time to digest knowledge acquired as well other courses concurrently taken, and still have sometimes for their extracurricular activities. For undergraduate study such setting is appropriate and understanding as life in university should have a good balance. However, for those part-time/short terms/postgraduates studying they are more likely with a job attached and the real concern no longer is just a problem of knowledge acquired but more on issue of time and effectiveness. To majority time is an alternative cost even they may do nothing at home and it’s impossible for them to devote full in studying. That’s why the intensive training program introduces in the market. Two to four consecutive days (9-5) training is quite common and ends both instructor and attendants exhausted.

Here we try to assume people are mature, conscious what they are pursuing and have ability of self studying after class attended. But what it turns out here the assumption is somehow invalid, particularly so to some who even fail to meet the prerequisite of the class and tends to get lost while the class. They are stressed no just lagging behind the schedule but also the basic knowledge equipped before the new knowledge loading. No wonder students are worrying the passing grade while the first class starts. It’s understanding.

But a point here please be nice to your lecturer/instructor particularly so to those well in preparation. Hold positive attitude to ask question rather to interrogate their knowledge, that’s the quickest way you can learn more from him/her. Just believe that those have burnt their mid-night oil and work hard would reward in someway! Add oil, friends!

Sheep Mold

There is a TCBY counter inside TaiKoo MTR station and always many ice-cream cakes display with various cartoon molds. It’s cute and tastes good. But what caught my attention last Friday evening was a sheep mold cake, just found something seems familiar. Yup, once upon a time I spent quite an effort to have a pair of hand made泥膠羊公仔鎖匙扣. As told I am good at craft stuffs and my production is quite lovely and its’ appearance looks very similar to the picture shown here.

They were well packed in a tiny box and sent to a friend of mine. They have named “BiBi &DiDi” and now? Are they still fine and well treated? No sure but just hope they aren’t in the bin.

葡萄成熟時

作曲:Vincent chow /anfernee cheung 唱:陳奕迅 詞:黃偉文

差不多冬至　早一晚還是有雨
當初的堅持　現已令你很懷疑　很懷疑
你最尾等到　只有這枯枝

苦戀幾多次　悉心栽種全力灌注
所得竟不如　別個後輩收成時
這一次　你真的很介意

但見旁人談情何引誘 　問到何時葡萄先熟透
你要靜候　再靜候 就算失收　始終要守

日後　儘量別教今天的淚白流
留低　擊傷你的石頭　從錯誤裡吸收
也許　豐收　月份尚未到你也得接受
或者要到你將愛釀成醇酒 時機先至熟透

應該怎麼愛　可惜書裡從沒記載
終於摸出來　但歲月卻不回來　不回來
錯過了春天　可會再花開

一千種戀愛　一些需要情淚灌溉
枯萎的溫柔　在最後會長回來
錯的愛　乃必經的配菜

想想天的一邊　亦有個某某　在等候
一心只等葡萄熟透　嚐杯酒

別讓　寂寞害你傷得一夜白頭
仍得不需要的自由　和最耀眼傷口
我知　日後　路上或沒有更美的邂逅
但當你智慧都蘊釀成紅酒　仍可一醉自救
誰都心酸過　那個沒有

備註:這是最近早上收音機經常播放的一首歌,是詞填得出色還是唱的到家,相輔相成吧!自陳奕迅出道以來,我不是他的狂熱fans,但很喜歡他的歌,尢其他很用心唱的時候,不袛是K歌還有其他的我也熟悉!我不認識他本人,對其私生活也沒甚興趣,大學時因通識教育林奕華邀請他來午間劇場,因為他而走堂兩個鐘,那時看到陳奕迅的真與誠,開心與不開心!印象幾好!後來,報紙報導人紅了也變了?這個我不會致評,因為我不認識他!但有樣是感覺到的他很喜歡唱歌,如他那天所說!對我,這已經足夠,不是嗎?

小王子

詞、曲：陳昇

你是來自另外一個世界的人嗎
為何你只用眼睛來說話
柔弱得像初生的綿羊一樣
期望的只是一雙溫柔可以倚靠的肩膀
這樣的事我無法去對別人說
說你拒絕我給你所有的一切
卻只因為看見海洋
就興奮的想對海神祭酒
並且高聲叫說"海神請你趕快要出來"

等著我 別走得快
孩子 你暫且別哭泣 路還遙遠且難行

上海 (三) 之 新與舊

上海以浦江為界,分東西, 浦東舊乃農田,短短十幾廿年的時間,發展迅速,繞世紀大道的均是玻璃窗幕場,摩天大廈處處,!浦東乃商業經濟區,金融中心也,如上海證券交易所便坐落於此,其外觀設計也曾花過心思,建築物中間中空,有如一口窗!根據他們的就法有二,這口窗乃模仿古時的銅錢, 證券交易所不就是管錢的嗎?噢,說得也是!另一說法則是, 這有如中國的口窗,打開內與外的交易大門! 嗯,說得也十分動聽! 領教過上海證券交易所的”嚴密保安”,也有幸見識亞洲最大的證券交易所,應該比香港的大?這個問題應該由 Ruth來答 : )

浦東現代摩天大廈，浦西藝術文化處處! 外資銀行紛紛入主黃埔外灘的老式的西洋建築內,也難怪由此至今也摸不掉那洋裝氣來,這一帶也是老外最喜愛浦的地方! 另一不可錯過的是南京路的和平飯店, 飯店歷史悠久，素享聲譽。始於1929年，有“遠東第一樓”之稱, 店內一切依舊,還保留著那金碧輝煌的餘暉。飯店老年爵士樂隊成立於八○年，是國內最負盛名的爵士樂隊之一，亦是全國唯一一支老年爵士樂隊。樂隊特別擅長演奏歐美三十、四十年代的流行爵士名曲和中外懷舊金曲，擁有五百多首保留曲目以供雅俗共賞。樂隊曾二十七次外訪演出，曾接待的貴賓多不勝數，當中包括美國前總統卡特及列根、挪威國王哈拉爾五世等。難怪BigBrother指明要我去一趟,這應是固中因由吧!

夜幕低垂,外灘老式的西洋建築便現其身價來,沿著外灘的濱江長堤行走,偶然一兩檔賣冰糖胡蘆的,也有叫賣紀念品的,更多的是情侶把臂同遊,秋風細語很有味道!寂寞的你,一不小心,可能會被捲入那三十年代紙醉金迷的夜上海裡去!

上海 (二) 之 求婚記

上海的十至十二月天, 天氣特別涼爽,是我喜歡的秋天時份,溫度介乎15-20間,是旅遊的好季節,偶一下陣過雲雨,是的,即時涼了很多,但雨後的空氣卻也份外清新,很是舒服!

由香港飛上海浦東機埸須時約三句鐘,花最多時間的除了睡覺還是睡覺,還有這sudoku的遊戲,有它同行?時間過得特別快!唔，這個好像有點問題，等程霜和sunshine也來試試！

落機時卻碰上機場求婚記!以前看三色台的,總覺得這類橋段只有編劇才會想得出,想不到也有人會抄橋! 抄橋者,老外一名,金金頭髮,高大有型,手中拿著張大大的卡紙,上面大大字寫著[李申],站在柵欄門口,搖來搖去!就這一看,還以為是那種接機的！心想,他懂這兩個字嗎?那個好心人幫他一把?哈哈哈～

話口未完，那邊廂有一排空姐拖著行李斯斯然從另一出口步來，依制服來看，藍與紅的配搭，應該是BA的！正思索著那方去搭計乘車時，忽然有人在後大聲尖叫，轉個身，噢，那鬼仔正跪在地下，手中卻多了一束玫瑰，嚷著“marry me mary me, I love u “,那女子乃空姐，嬌滴滴的可愛也，鬼仔男性朋友則在一旁助陣，拿著DVD拍下真情一幕，在場者都來圍觀，場面老土卻也溫馨！結果？當然求婚成功，又一跨種族文化的交流！

人與人之間總是互動的,你逗我開心，我開開你玩笑，生活就是這樣過的　：）

上海 (一) 之 概括篇

上海位于長江三角洲沖積平原，因吳淞江支流上海浦而得名。春秋時屬吳，戰國時當地漁民創造捕魚工具“扈”，稱這一帶為滬瀆，東晉時在此筑滬瀆壘以防海盜，故上海簡稱“滬”。上海是中國的歷史文化名城，被譽為“江海之通津，東南之都會”。有云:“兩千年歷史看西安，一千年歷史看北京，一百年歷史看上海”，上海是近現代中國的“縮影”，擁有厚重的歷史底蘊。

上海發展日盛，是中國最大的商業、金融中心，其內外聯系廣泛，交通、通訊比較發達，吸引越來越多的目光。這里薈萃多少風云人物，孫中山、宋慶齡、毛澤東、周恩來、魯迅、李鴻章、蔣介石、宋子文等許多名流的足跡散落在上海各處的不同住宅建筑里，蘊含著一段段耐人尋味的往事。容後有機會細說!

今日上海，是一座具現代又不失中國傳統的都市，處處顯現著她的獨特魅力，令人著迷──外灘老式的西洋建筑，浦東現代的摩天大廈，徐家匯大教堂聖詩聲，玉佛寺香煙裊裊，過街樓下的麻將老人，弄堂里的足球少年，群眾劇場的滬劇滑稽戲，大劇院的交響樂、芭蕾舞，老飯店的本幫佳肴，杏花樓的廣式粵茶，云南路的各地小吃，紅房子的法國大菜，小紹興的三黃雞，美國的肯德基，上海老街的茶館，衡山路的酒吧，中西合璧，新歡舊愛，各有各的精彩。夜幕，霓虹閃耀，夜上海粉墨登場，和平飯店的爵士樂，豫園的絲竹音樂，讓人追憶上個世紀二、三十年代老上海的舊夢，而現代迪斯科的節奏，遍地開花的網吧，又把人帶回了21世紀的現代文明……

備註: 上海以浦江為界,分東西, 浦江以東舊乃農田,現已是現代摩天大廈處處,商業經濟為主。浦江以西則是舊上海靈魂,生活文化傳統的融合。去上海一定要刨刨書,看看歷史介紹,因為,你不知道你走過的殘破街道,原來是三十年代的最盛的樓閣;或會後悔錯過徐志摩和陸小曼的愛巢, 天涯其實就在呎尺;身在上海,文化歷史本就是生活!沒有此心,對你我,上海只是一個普通不過的城市!

Trip Returned

Returned from my trip yesterday and things were on schedule running smoothly as expected. I felt good about the arrangement by colleagues in Shanghai but was disappointed clients’ performance. They called me “little girl” but to them like DinDin the topic maybe too difficult and their performance? sign…

It kept raining past few days and cold as well. The temperature was around 16-20 degree. Except those formal dress for work, people saw me odd dressed short t-shirt and jeans inside but a coat outside wearing a neckerchief. I don’t care but keep reminding myself don’t be sick and catch flu, I have to pass the gate checking and home return. -____-!

Somehow I am a person functioning independent but it has no great fun if you travel to other place because of work alone. A company is better than non sometimes.

Business Trip

Location: ShangHai
Topic: Neural Network Modelling
Remarks: Good Luck!

來之安之

經歷了狂風
避開了暴雨
挨過了寒冬
明媚晴天就在跟前
今天你們會更加堅強
阿比,圓圓
既來之則安之則安之又何懼之

Memory

T.S. Eliot, A.L. Webber and T. Nunn

Midnight, not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight the withered leaves collect at my feet
and the wind begins to moan.

Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
It was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.

Every street lamp seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and a street lamp gutters
and soon it will be morning.

Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise,
I must think of a new life and I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
and a new day will begin.

Burnt out ends of smoky days, the stale, cold smell of morning.
The street lamp dies, another night is over,
another day is dawning.

Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
all alone with the memory
of my days in the sun.
If you touch me I'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.

Note: Memory is one of songs that I like most. Post a link for sharing here just in case DinDin's beautiful voice ruins my good memory. Enjoy it!
- Music Link -

苦口良藥 ?

人云:
醉過焉知酒濃,愛過才知情傷
跌過就知辛痛,苦過便知藥良

這已是我這星期的第十二碗了,苦口良藥,袛是安慰他人的說話,也是安慰自已的,沒事的誰又願找苦來吃?阿比,圓圓,SWJ,其實你們並不寂寞,加埋我已經夠腳開檯!

天行健 君子自強不息

易經，宇宙萬物自然法則，與人類生活行為合為一體。解釋萬物變化的哲理。一般人看到易經，總以為一種占卜法而已。事實上，易經博大經深。古時”易經”已被奉為”群經之首”。 占卜不過是其應用之一罷了。由其六十四卦所推演的種種道理，尚可運用於許多的學術中。諸如：命理學、天文學、相學、醫學、堪輿學、倫理學、兵法、仙學．．．等。 今天要談的是八八六十四卦中的第一卦 - 乾

第一卦 乾 乾為天 乾上乾下
乾：元，亨，利，貞。
初九：潛龍，勿用。
九二：見龍再田，利見大人。
九三：君子終日乾乾，夕惕若，厲無咎。
九四：或躍在淵，無咎。
九五：飛龍在天，利見大人。
上九：亢龍有悔。
用九：見群龍無首，吉。曰：大哉乾元，万物資始，乃統天。云行雨施，品物流形。大明始終，六位時成，時乘六龍以御天。乾道變化，各正性命，保合大和，乃利貞。首出庶物，万國咸宁。
象曰：天行健，君子以自強不息。

本卦象﹕乾、元、亨、利、貞。乾為大亨通，守貞正則吉。元亨為陽，利貞為陰。

乾乃建也，為萬物生成化育，綿延不息之意，天與人之間，本具有一貫相通之理。 亦即「原」也，意謂著事物之初、開始、起端、根本、基礎、大、多、勝；亨即「通」也，意謂著事物之通達、進行、無休止、無窮盡、無匱乏、無終結；利即「宜」也，意謂著事物之宜、有濟、有利益、有用處；貞即「固」也，意謂著事物之堅固、安定、保 守、永久、不變、理直氣正。元、亨、利、貞乃「乾」之四德，可解釋為：凡事須有一善的開始與發展「元」， 經過一番善的協調、整合「亨」，而以最誠意的義理實踐，必然有所利益「利」，如此 則凡事所作所為，方能有一根本、主幹可固守、安定不變「貞」。

初爻﹕潛龍勿用
時機未到，還不要開始，急進會遭失敗。實力難發揮，準備之時。

二爻﹕見龍在田。利見大人。
可以推展。聽從長上意見較好。

三爻﹕君子終日乾乾、夕惕若厲。旡咎。
危險之時，要注意不要失足。意圖變化之時，多忙。

四爻﹕或躍在淵。旡咎。
已逐漸接近目標，但時機未到。多迷惑。有變化。

五爻﹕飛龍在天，利見大人。
盛運之時，實力得以發揮，可推進。將成中心。得意之時。

六爻﹕亢龍有悔。
凶兆。盲進會失敗，唯有退卻。事物的終止之時。有爭訟。

用九：見群龍無首，吉。
陽必陰,此時應沉著應戰,分析當中變化,按客觀規律去作,才能用九, 而不是被九所用。冷靜,客觀,不衝動,不逞強,不妄動,通權達變,才能撐握事物變化規律。

備註:昨晚在DinDin處偶然想起唸書時上過的通識課,很是過癮!有次我上的是易經六十四掛,以科學證之易經並非迷信之說,而導師便是某某博士,其博士論文便是以此為題!有趣,他更教導由中國文化,歷史演變,如何起掛,解說一一細說!很久前找了些資料,記錄了點滴!人生哲理,如今再貼,與你共勉之!

白靄星

白靄星是靜態的星座，顧名思義，「白靄」就是雲霧，在特質上有小溪流、小湖泊的現象。它是安靜、無攻擊性的，甚至是一種停滯的水，給人安定的感覺。

命格優勢： 有耐性、善於思考。
命格缺點： 個性兩極化、有點自卑。
愛情模式： 個性比較被動，想追又害怕被拒絕。
財　運：75分，膽大心細，財運中等。
上班運：75分，有主見、只是行動力還不夠。
風信子的信念：我就是相信堅持下去就能成功。

風信子的姓名星座屬於 白靄星
命宮代表數字： 10、20、30、40、50、60、70、80

五行屬性: 水
姓名星座屬性:　靜靜的、善思考的、不開朗、自卑的
代表人物：施崇棠、施振榮、張信哲、陳水扁
星座優點：冷靜、溫和、善於文藝、思考力佳。
星座缺點：精神不是很好的樣子、比較悲觀、固執、不善溝通、不很實際。
人生信念：做事還是穩健一點的好。
愛情 IQ ：85 分
愛情模式：幻想也是一種快樂。
愛情速配對象：己土星、巨木星、天馬星男性
愛情歡喜冤家：丁火星、白靄星男性

備註：之前在冬冬，圓圓，阿比度看過“姓名星座”這玩意，卻忘記了貼！準嗎？不敢說，我想我是靜態的星座，有優點也有缺點，但好喜歡它的所謂信念：
“我就是相信堅持下去就能成功。”盲目的堅持是否理智？
“做事還是穩健一點的好 。”嗯嗯，小心駛得萬年船！
“幻想也是一種快樂 。”??? 哎,阿Q精神!

Neural Network

Neural networks are not new; they have been around since 1943. But although the neural calculus had been worked out, no automated method of setting the network's connection strengths was known.

To better appreciate the challenges of multivariate function estimation, a number of classical approaches to univariate function estimation are explored. These approaches broadly fall into three areas.

- Nonlinear Regression
- Empirical Model Building
- Nonparametric Regression

Univariate methods rapidly become more difficult as the number of inputs increase. Because of the difficulty specifying the functional forms of high-dimensional equations, it is uncommon to use parametric nonlinear regression for more than one or possibly two inputs. And nonparametric regression methods, such as smoothing splines, suffer because of the relative sparseness of data in higher dimensions.

Neural networks are also flexible multivariate function estimators. Unlike classical methods, however, neural networks perform well in sparse, high-dimensional spaces.

- Potts, WJE. Neural Network Modeling –

偶然

作曲：陳秋霞 填詞：徐志摩 編曲：梁基爵

我是天空裡的一片雲 偶爾投影在你的波心
你不必訝異　無須歡喜 在轉瞬間　消滅了蹤影

你我相逢　在黑夜的海上 你有你的　我有我的方向
你記得也好　最好你忘掉 在這交會上互放的光亮