Friday, August 04, 2006

讓等待遺忘在風中...

都說人生是由一連串的等待所組成。

孩提時,看見大人們不用上學『自由自在』,於是,每天巴巴地等待長大。其實是無憂無慮的生活,卻不知好歹地等待人生中那漫漫長路的掙扎。

等待是人生一大課題,讓電影、音樂、文學不愁寂寞。 可曾守候過一份不經意的承諾?由盼望以至失望,中間所經歷的心緒不寧、焦勺不安?看《向日葵》中的Johanna ,執著地堅信那份在漫天烽火中產生的愛情,結果在許多年後,千里迢迢從意大利跑到俄國,找到的,卻是已和一個俄國女子結了婚的Antonio …

等待歸人,但歸人,原來也只是過客。異地重逢,徒惹來另一次比死別更難受的生離。

真的,有些人你永遠不必等。

明明白白的知道這個事實,知道了,又怎樣呢?只因為那感覺彷彿依然,於是執意地等下去,一如等待果陀 。 果陀是誰?又有誰見過果陀?不過是半個世紀前虛構的人物,卻教世人誤墮塵網,展開一場又一場美麗的等待 。

然後,毫無選擇地進入了電子郵件的年代。電郵將人生不同階段的等待,冷冷地壓縮成為生活的一部份 。 期待中的電郵沒有來,總讓人感到一陣失落。 遂將思念化作沉默,將等待,遺忘在風中。

不用等待 ,原來,也是一種幸福 。

《生活一品鍋》

2 comments:

Ruth Tam said...

I still don't like going to school. I prefer to be an adult than a child.

I don't like waiting. However, once hear the saying "sweet torture of waiting" and sometimes it's true. In Star Trek, the captain once said: "Having is not as gratifying as wanting."

Hyacinthus said...

JY, life itself is a learning process; we learn things from school, from work, from friends around as well from ourselves via experiences. Life time in schooling is always good. Attitude somehow determines your mode/style of living, glad to know that you do enjoy your living right now. It's a moment needed to treasure! :)

Ruth, I feel good still going to school as it offers me knowledge that I interest in. I spend most of time in library while my schooling but now with books borrowed from library. No doubt library is always the right place for knowledge pursuing. However, nowadays I don’t like to stay long in library anymore, it’s cold and alone!

I don’t like waiting! Yes is Yes, No is No. When is When. Really don’t appreciate the feeling of uncertainty, it’s a pain or torture somehow. Sure it differs while talking about "sweet torture of waiting"!